count down in order?

i think so don't you? so i have been here since what…July 31st? i say so anyway. been a while and well i have to say that I'm ready to go home. i have truly enjoyed my stay away from the normal but I'm ready to get back into the dirt and grime of my real home! i miss the great country and the smell of wood smoke in the evenings. and gosh i miss the loud noises in my house of kids screaming and laughing and yelling at each other. i always complained but you have no idea how i miss it so.

what i miss most is my family. seeing them smile even in times when smiling is the only thing we can do to keep ourselves going thru the week. and i truly appreciate it more and more. i love living a grateful for what i have lifestyle better than the I've got money lets go to the mall and shop lifestyle. :D i never truly appreciated what i had until i started earning my own money. thank you mom and dad for raising me right. :D

anyway so ive added more days to my schedule. which is nice. i am actually able to get out of the house. but i wish i could get out after work and hang with people. my “friends” are more acquaintances than friends at work. but alteast im not comfortable to talk to people outside of my bubble.

aaah ok so anyway count down? yes…im coming home to stay for good at christmas time because i miss everyone and everything back home more than i really can say. ive tried to hold it back and not let the emotions get the better of me, but the mask strings are wearing thin and i cannot manage to keep the mask on.

i wanna be able to come home and my dog welcome me. and you know what i really regret not spending more time with my family before i left. i became so lost in myself for the fact that i was leaving that i hid in my room or went out with friends. and i really wish that i could have that time again and able to spend it more with my family.

darn it i didnt wanna start crying for this….geeez. but im glad that i have like 2 and1/2 months left of this place. i dont think i was ready to leave the house just yet. i need my parents and siblings most of all. and they have NO idea how i really feel. D:

classic peg.

tuesday is dumpster day?

every 2 weeks in ridgewood there is a large trash pick up day. and let me tell you the saying "one mans trash is another mans treasure" is sooo true! the people out here seriously throw away things that are either so last week or so last season. or just whatever, and you find yourself coming home with sooo many great finds! i am on my way to furnishing my first apartment i swear!
i got a queen sized wooden bed frame with the whole old fashion would slats and all. i got a really cool chair, a baby basket complete with padding and all. and then found yet another chair but might not keep it. on a second run out i found 2 ATVs for kids, a childs chest of drawers, and a lebron james nike basketball. what a deal eh? totally something i would do every 2 weeks because you never know whats out there.

something must have made you say that

so i am totally in the mood for some chocolate pudding with a layer of kool-whip. and then more pudding then granola sprinkles. aaaaah. doesn't that sound just soooo amazing?

something like this perhaps?

how amazing does that look? i don't know but I'm pretty convinced that that is on my list of must haves. hahaha

so this week has been pretty busy. still waiting for the baby. stupid doctor keeps saying this week. this week. this week. for like the past 3 weeks and the last appointment he didn't say anything. WHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!

i have spent much of my free time this week finishing book after book. im so determined to finish the rest of the large books that i brought within the next two weeks.

i first finished Abigail Cooper : psychic eye. that was a book that i COULDNT put down at all. i read it while at work. i read it late into the night. i was so determined to never put it down as long as i could and when i finished i was like OH MY GOD! i want more!! its the first of a series and i was craving sooo much more.

 

i would highly recommend that book again and again. it had mystery and romance evenly tied together. you cant find alot of books that way. my next book that yes i finished at 2:43 am this morning was oh my god a best. Anne rinaldi has definitely every bit of me behind her stories. they are AMAZING!

it was The Staircase that i finished and now im onto her “A break with Charity” a story about the salem witch trials. and so far its pretty good. and very accurate with historical imformation.

but thats not entirely why im writing so you get a few book reviews or what ever. i just thought i would update. this week has been a constant weird. the weather is either amazingly perfect. not humid and not dry either. or its raining.

 

and i dont mind that. since honestly its rained like ever other day since i have been here. might as well get used to it yes?

might invest in some of these?

today i have been in an all around its time to bring out the poet mood. constantly doodling things on random pieces of paper or typing up the random ideas i have into my phone if i have no space. and in the end they come to never have any part in each other cause they don't make sense together… D:

here's a random piece that i typed up quick because it came fast and completely random…and i now cannot build off of it because i don't have the same feelings anymore…ughh

so i haven't totally made real friends to hang out with around here. made “friends” with some people at work and that's where it will stay i suppose. i kind of feel like this around some people because they all know each other for alot longer than i can really understand…

while every one is like this:

but hey im sure in time things will get better. but im just in this place for the money. hopefully going to try to buy me a new car.

either this:

or this:

but thats my goal. even if i have to wait till i get home to actually purchase the car…

yucky muck

“i need a fix cause I'm going down down to the pits that i left up town. i need a fix cause I'm going doooowwwwn. mother superior jumped the gun!!..happiness is a warm gun, yes it is.”

So these past couple of day haven't been entirely pleasant up here. trying to get to bed “Early” is harder than it has been in the past. i just wanna stay up and talk but that doesn't seem like its going to work with me very well. well not anymore at least.  so anyway yesterday i woke up at like 630 am because the roofers were already working on the church roof next door. and seriously that's RIGHT is our backyard. how can i get away from that? i cant cause my window is RIGHT there. uggggh! so that was the end of probably the best dream that i have had since i have been here. hmmm.

  i hope they leave soon cause i need sleep. it takes alot of hours for me to look this amazing! haha kidding.

so i worked last week. first real job and my first real week of work. and i liked it. it was really some fun stuff. the kids are all fun. some are….well… cant really say that i hate them but cant say they are the best or that i like them. so…you can think on your own.

i finally got the tour of the spa. and its absolutely amazing inside. they have a large set up for their fitness area including side rooms that are also LARGE! and the classes they provide are incredible i hope to sometime get into one of these classes. and i wouldn't have to pay a dime! OH MEH GOSH! how awesome is that? right…mhm.

so i really have found what i wanna do with my future career. talk about something hands on! i wanna be a massage therapist. eh? sound good to anyone? i think so anyway. looking into taking some online classes that will get me the credits and stuff i need before i need to go into an actual school to do the hands on portion of the class. i think it would be something i would be really good at. cause we already have a skin care specialist up here why not try something different like massage therapy?

so i got my hair cut today. looks cute. nothing really different. at all. but i went in and i was the first one there and my stylist hadn't even come into work yet so i was like DANG! but when he got there OMG you could just tell that we was G-A-Y. and honest to blog that has no effect on me what so ever. I'm just saying. he was nice. kept talking to everyone around him because i wasn't a regular and he had just come back from vacation in the Caribbean islands. so they were all catching up. that's perfectly fine with me. i could care less. but he was a pretty cool guy. everyone in there is like family and really nice to each other.

finally got a package in the mail today! omg it was absolutely amazing! i felt so loved. i got 3 cds. 4 magazines. a book and a picture. i was like THIS IS AWESOME! i cant wait till i get a paycheck that way i can start sending out stuff to people like promised. :D